~ Hiding ~

Today I had a little bit of an ah ha moment!  

I have a little vulture in my home.  Well, really I have 3 but the biggest vulture is Carsyn.  He is turning 3 this weekend!  I love him to death!  (what does that mean?), I should say I love him to eternity because ah, he is the CUTEST little turd!  He could get away with murder!

Today, he tried to throw his cereal bowl in the sink.  It spilled out and down the counter.  Shredded mini wheats and left over milk all over the counter, cupboards, and floors.  When I found the mess, I said "ugh, who made this mess" and he replies emphatically, "me of course".  If only you could have heard it!  I just started laughing.  There is no getting mad at that boy with how honest and kind hearted he is!  He is always getting into things but his face after being caught just kills you!  

Anyway ~ back on topic!

Today as I was eating my 21-day fix breakfast -

4 pieces turkey bacon

2 eggs scrambled

1 yellow container oatmeal

1/2 purple frozen berries in oatmeal

1/2 purple frozen berries in smoothie

1/2 purple for a little banana in smoothie 

(smoothie made with water, wild orange Essential Oil, vanilla, and fruit)

I had this said little vulture at my side.  He was eating my bacon, my eggs, my smoothie and at first I was getting a little frustrated!  I had measured it all out for the plan.  I didn't want to be messed up!  I then realized it was ok.  What I was eating was healthy.  I didn't have to hide in my room as I was eating something I didn't want the kids to know about.   I wasn't scarfing down hidden oreos or m&m's I usually have hidden in the drawer below my computer.  I was eating good things for me and for him and if he has a little here and there that's fine and GREAT because he isn't eating crap and I am not hiding from him!  It is ok that my containers will be off a little here and there.  I can't measure how much he really ate but it doesn't matter!

I hope that this will instill better eating habits in them as well as me.  My kids are already pretty well rounded when it comes to food.  They eat veggies, fruits, anything really, without any real problem.  I lucked out in that department (unless I ask them to consume fish, then it's the end of the world)!

Week 4 Results -

WAHOO! Upping my calories and continuing my workouts really paid off!  I am down 2 lbs from last week!  I am super excited!  This road is long and slow but I know I am working on doing things the way I need to, to work for me!

I am also adding the program 21-day fix to my routine.  I love T-25 workouts so I am only doing the meal plan of 21-day fix but I know it will make a difference!  It took me 2 hours to plan out my menu for this week, but it is totally worth it.  I haven't wanted to snack on unknown things!  I go to my schedule, look at what's coming next, make it, and eat it!

I have only done this for 1 day and breakfast this morning and I am already learning a LOT about what I need to be eating!  I need to eat a lot more protien than I do and a LOT less carbs!  Not zero carbs, but less!  I also am getting in a LOT more veggies and fruits.  I hope I continue to love this program over the next 21 days!

I really need to work on my food photography skills if I am going to keep this up!  The top was what I had for breakfast and the salad was my lunch yesterday!  This is real food people!  I am so excited for the next 20 days to pass and see how this goes!  

I am also going dairy free for this little princess!  We are thinking her gaining weight issues might have something to do with a food allergy and not absorbing the nutrients from the foods!  I hope this works but at the same time, not eating dairy is VERY difficult!  Much more difficult than I thought!

My week 4 results -

Weight: 206.5 (down 1.5lbs)

Waist: 43 (no change)

Hips - 49 (down 1 inch)

Legs and Arm - (no change)

Confusing and Hard

I am going to rant and vent here for a second!

Weightloss is SO confusing and hard!

They say just burn more calories than you take in - not true - I burned over 3000 calories and stayed under my calorie goal and was between 1600-1800 calories/day!

They say don't eat too many calories.  They say don't eat to little calories.  And yet you see people using programs that take you down to 500-1000 calories with people having AMAZING results. I even personally know some of these people and I am so proud of them, but restricting down that much is not in the cards for me.

There are calorie calculators that say eat this many calories to lose weight.  I do that.  I follow it all. And then I have no loss.  I don't know how to do it!  I don't know how you all do it!

With the calculators they say choose if you are sedentary, active, moderately active, etc.  Who is to say that?  Who says if I am sedentary or active?  How do I choose? Some days I feel like I am so active and other days I sit at the computer all day every day and the only activity I get is my workout for the day!  How do you balance that?

They say you're eating too little, you're eating too much.  They say drink more water, cut out soda, don't eat out.  I tell you what!  I don't drink soda EVER!  I don't eat candy, well, sometimes I do, but not regularly.  We NEVER go out to eat.  I promise you, my family and I eat out about once a month and that is it.  I don't know where else I can change!  I don't know what to do.  There are so many conflicting statements out there and I feel like I have tried it all.

Although I am frustrated I will continue it and work hard because although I had a week of no loss, I am getting stronger.  I am able to do T25 with less modification.  I can feel the strength increasing!  I am loving it, although I am struggling.

Here's to a better, stronger week!  Please, help lift me up too!

Weekends are HARD ~

I have a love - hate relationship with the weekend!  During the week I am SO strong!  I am home all day, everyday, and rarely have a chance to flub up, unless there is something emotional going and and then I will find a way, any way, to flub up! Weekends are another story!

Weekends are SO hard for me!  At least the weekends like this weekend! Saturday we spent from 9 AM until 6 PM out and about running errands, having fun, and spending $$$! 

 We went to Trafalga in Orem and had some fun playing mini golf as a family.  We indulged in a pizza for the family and some dippin dots.  That is something we NEVER do.  I try to think it's the memories that count!  I hold that to my heart because spending time with my children and making memories really does matter to me and I know they love those times when we get out and do something different.

Today was another difficult day.  We blessed my dear Caydee and while it is a beautiful thing to have family around for the celebration of a baby, it is also very difficult. You know how the family bbq's go! 

There was shredded bbq chicken, cookies, cake, chips, pop, juice, etc.   Lucky for me I was nursing Caydee during the time everyone was dishing up so by the time I got to the desserts, there wasn't much left!  But, for breakfast, as we were driving to church I realized I hadn't eaten breakfast and I was starting to feel sick and weak and mentioned to my mom and she had a butterfinger in her car so that was it! 

It seems like there is always a weekend like this that comes up, nearly every weekend!  Next weekend is Mother's day, Susan G. Komen Race day, and Cris's birthday.  The next weekend is a farewell party, Carsyn's birthday, and the next I think is memorial.  I need help!  Weekends suck the life out of me!  My goals for this week is to better plan for this next weekend so I can make the best choices I can for the weekend we have.  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

Weight: 208 (no change :( )

Waist: 43 (no change)

Hips - 50 (down 1/2 inch)

Legs and Arm - I forgot to measure

How is it that the week I work the HARDEST (I burned on average 800 calories a day) I don't lose anything.  On top of weekends being hard, losing weight is REALLY hard!  I need to figure this out.  I cannot gain more weight and I NEED to be healthy and fit for my family!