I am human too!

Friends -

PiYo sweat is no joke!

I have been MIA for a few weeks.

Life get's busy.

You get complacent.

You fall back into some of your bad habits.

We are human.

I have struggled for a few weeks off and on since I ended T25.  I love that program but my knees were wanting a break.  I also love 21-day fix meal program which has nothing to do with my knees but I just got complacent!  I thought - oh, this can kind of work, or I stopped measuring and planning.  My biggest bad habit I fell back into is not eating.  I struggle a lot with making sure I get enough food in to fuel my body. When I didn't fuel my body, I didn't want to workout and it was a continuous horrible battle!

Thanks Karen for the new workout shirt!
It got me going today!

I am a mom.

I get busy.  

Although I get hungry, I get so wrapped up doing other things that soon the hunger disappears until it wont disappear and I am so hungry I go for whatever I can get!  With 21-day fix it is so important to plan ahead. Lucky for me I didn't gain any weight back, but I didn't lose as well as I could have either.

I have been getting back on track 90% of the time over the last few weeks but I have a goal in mind and I am bound and determined to reach it in the next 2 1/2 weeks.  I am determined to lose 5 lbs. It is a lofty goal. It could be unreachable, but I know that as I work hard and plan ahead, I have more than enough tools to get it done!

Last night, although it was 10:30 PM and I knew I was waking up at 5:30 (ended up 5 AM because of Caydee), I took the time to cut up some veggies and de-bone a rotisserie chicken.  If you fail to plan, You plan to fail!

I took a break from blogging because I wasn't trying my hardest.

You will know I am struggling when I am MIA.

There's nothing to show off with how proud I am of myself.

If my struggling helps others know it is ok and to not give up, I will start sharing!

If you notice I am MIA call me out!

There will be ups and downs on this weight loss roller coaster.

I have to remember I am human.

Results and Shakeology -

Well, I was .3 lbs away from being in the 199's!  Although I didn't hit it, I am ok with that!  I had an awesome week.  I am sure if a couple choices I made throughout the week eating wise would have been different I could have went down below 199 but it's life and although I strive to be perfect in my eating, I make mistakes or not even mistakes, choices, that my not be the most beneficial but still not horrible for me.

It reminds me of the talk by Dallin H. Oaks of good, better, best.  I made good choices, but I could have made better or best decisions that would have gotten me to that goal.  I will make it this week and I will blow that goal out of the water! I know this talk is more on the spiritual aspect of life but I will apply it to this part of my life as well!

Look at these 2 cute girls!  The skinny chick is my Caydee.  She is 4.5 months old.  The super happy chick is my Clarysa at 5.5 months old. I think they would look a lot alike if Caydee could get some weight on her!

Caydee was up all night with a bit of a fever.  At 5:30 AM I couldn't get back to sleep so I went down stairs and got some back to back workouts in!  I was up 3-4 times last night.  Up at 5:30 - got my workout in, shower in, make up on, and hair done!  Throw your excuses out the window!  You can do anything for 25 minutes and if you're really feeling up to it, double it up and get a killer burn!

I got a new do this last weekend too!  I love longer hair but mine always ends up looking stringy and gross!  I went to a bob and then an a-line.  I love it!  Makes me happy to have nice hair!

Now about shakeology - I decided to try shakeology a few months ago.  I have drank it every day since the beginning of April. A few of the the things I have noticed while using shakeology is a definite increase in energy.  I am amazed!  The other thing I have noticed is no longer having crazy cravings.  I use to think about chocolate chip cookies, brownies, etc. 90% of my day.  It was always on my mind what treat I could make, what crap I could eat real quick, etc.  I started thinking about it and it has been quite some time (so much so that I can't remember when) that I have even made a treat.  When I open the cupboard I go for my cashews or peanut butter and then put it on some bread with a banana.  I also drink my shakeology if I am really needing a treat.  I like the vanilla the best because I can add stuff to it, but I hear grand reviews of the chocolate too!

~ Hiding ~

Today I had a little bit of an ah ha moment!  

I have a little vulture in my home.  Well, really I have 3 but the biggest vulture is Carsyn.  He is turning 3 this weekend!  I love him to death!  (what does that mean?), I should say I love him to eternity because ah, he is the CUTEST little turd!  He could get away with murder!

Today, he tried to throw his cereal bowl in the sink.  It spilled out and down the counter.  Shredded mini wheats and left over milk all over the counter, cupboards, and floors.  When I found the mess, I said "ugh, who made this mess" and he replies emphatically, "me of course".  If only you could have heard it!  I just started laughing.  There is no getting mad at that boy with how honest and kind hearted he is!  He is always getting into things but his face after being caught just kills you!  

Anyway ~ back on topic!

Today as I was eating my 21-day fix breakfast -

4 pieces turkey bacon

2 eggs scrambled

1 yellow container oatmeal

1/2 purple frozen berries in oatmeal

1/2 purple frozen berries in smoothie

1/2 purple for a little banana in smoothie 

(smoothie made with water, wild orange Essential Oil, vanilla, and fruit)

I had this said little vulture at my side.  He was eating my bacon, my eggs, my smoothie and at first I was getting a little frustrated!  I had measured it all out for the plan.  I didn't want to be messed up!  I then realized it was ok.  What I was eating was healthy.  I didn't have to hide in my room as I was eating something I didn't want the kids to know about.   I wasn't scarfing down hidden oreos or m&m's I usually have hidden in the drawer below my computer.  I was eating good things for me and for him and if he has a little here and there that's fine and GREAT because he isn't eating crap and I am not hiding from him!  It is ok that my containers will be off a little here and there.  I can't measure how much he really ate but it doesn't matter!

I hope that this will instill better eating habits in them as well as me.  My kids are already pretty well rounded when it comes to food.  They eat veggies, fruits, anything really, without any real problem.  I lucked out in that department (unless I ask them to consume fish, then it's the end of the world)!